Is having nihilistic viewpoints haram?

Hi, I wanted to ask a question since no matter what I searched on internet, I still didn’t find an answer. So, I’ve recently gotten into Islam and started practising it. Truth is I’ve always been a Muslim but only in name since I never prayed or knew anything about Islam, because no one around me did either. Now I’m 16 and I wanna learn about Islam as much as I can but I don’t have anyone around me who can teach me so I’m trying to learn on internet. I’ve discovered that I have nihilistic views on life. As we know, nihilism is believing that this life has no meaning, but to me purpose and meaning are two different things. My purpose in this life is to be a good Muslim who’s deserving of Jannah, but when it comes to the meaning of life then I don’t think that this life has any meaning. I mean, we’re all gonna die anyways and this world is just a lie. No one’s gonna remain on it forever, right? That’s why if something bad happens then I don’t really care because I’m one of many billions of people in this world, so why care? Is this thinking of mine haram? 

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@peepso_user_701(Zeina)
Salam. Allah says, “We did not create the heaven and the earth and everything between them in vain. That is the assumption of those who disbelieve (38:27)”. Therefore life is not meaningless.

Yours is a very profound question and I’ve thought about this in the past. As far as I’ve read and understood the Quran and the sunnah, the purpose and the meaning of life goes hand in hand. Ex. What’s the purpose of a chair? To sit. What’s the meaning of a chair? It’s a four legged piece that’s used for sitting /relaxing. Meaning is the explanation of purpose. Allah says in the Quran “I haven’t created the Jinn and the Mankind except to worship me”. So, there’s the purpose of life - to worship Allah. Then what’s the meaning of life? A journey that starts and ends by the will of God, within which we attain His pleasure by obeying His commands. That’s the best I can put in words.

The Quran is a gem my friend and as you keep reading it , it offers you answers that will satisfy your mind and heart.
10 months ago
@peepso_user_701(Zeina)
Btw yes it’s haram.
10 months ago